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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Crazy ass

crazy Ass, i went offline last night at around 3... after that, i tried so hard to sleep, but i was too wide awake... finally slept about 4 something... peter went online so late too, and he showed me the bbc news online... seriously, i didn't know that he goes to that website... woke up at 10 today... and N got angry at me just now, because she wanted to go online after pa went out, but i got to the comp first, so whatever la... ma's at 1 utama now... haih, i really wanted to go... at least i and N can go jalan jalan later, since the haze has cleared up... weather is so clear now... seems that everybody's studying for the upcoming trials... nata really got me pissed when she didn't reply last night... why doesn't her brother just get the credit for her??? the 'best' brother in the whole world man... finishes her credit, and doesn't want to buy more... she suggested that we go to her bkt tinggi house after pmr... i'm all up for it, but i dunno what N will say la...i thin

Posted at 08:53 pm by lagoon1
 

Wednesday, September 14, 2005
I love her

In Holland, the young men have a saying: "There are tons of beautiful women in the world, but only once or twice in a lifetime will you see a girl beautiful enough to make it worth getting onto the wrong train just so you can sit next to her for a while."

This one was like that.

I work in the recording studio at Baylor University, and one night I walked in to ask my boss a question. She was sitting there talking to him, and he introduced us. The warmth of her smile welcomed me, not as a stranger, but like an old friend.

She has a heart that longs to serve others -- she simply wants to spend her life reaching out to brighten the lives of those around her. We have everything in common, from jumping off of cliffs to climbing mountains to writing music and poetry, and I know that she is in my life for a reason.

I love her.

I haven't told her or been forward with her because she is growing and changing in a lot of ways and I have heard her say several times that she just isn't at a place right now where she can give a partner what they deserve in a relationship.

That's fine. For now I am content to be her friend, and love her from afar. But one day she will be ready, and I will try to win her heart.

There are many others that I could have right now, and sometimes it is hard to be patient. But she is my favorite, and I would never want to make anyone else settle for being my second choice.

She is worth waiting for.


Posted at 02:22 pm by lagoon1
 

Wednesday, August 31, 2005
World article

Brian's Stereo World article is out
As readers here may know, Queen guitarist Brian May is a huge stereo photography fan. The BrianMay.com website has a link to his article in Stereo World here.

My father-in-law is an antique bookseller in England, and I have daydreams of him coming up with some vital research information on this photgrapher TR Williams who Brian is writing about here. No dice.


And just what did I mean by a "jazzercize dialectic"?
[This is an (unreadable) lede and some subsequent current day notes from a ill-fated group book review from 2000. I don't think I even got around to talking about any of the books to be reviewed when my brain exploded.]

"Nature," Gertrude Stein once said, "is commonplace. Imitation is more interesting." That so sui generis of a modernist writer would take this tack about anything –she was speaking of Charlie Chaplin – speaks volumes about the creative process, as much as a stack of Harold Bloom's studies, as much as a thousand cover bands now performing Guns 'n Roses at taverns across this country of ours. As poets, imitation is the only way we really begin to find our own groove. No matter what stripe, ya gotta try on others' clothes.

... the early paintings we see in retrospectives, Kubrick's noir beginnings, all of these histories give the apprentice poet some confidence that she, too, might break from the shackles of stylistic vassaldom...

And what a shibboleth it has become – paying the rent of so many writing seminars, workshop lead kind of jazzercize dialectic that keeps poets, so eager to strike the wellspring of originality, showing up to their local Chautauqua, and later even ...

It's this professionalization of imitation, I suspect, is what has driven everyone crazy when criticizing the MFA boom of the last 10-15 years. There's a peculiarly American mindset ... and it makes for even more wonderful a cultural non sequiter, not the least of which is that so many thousands of degree-bearing poets makes for more bad poetry.

[2003 intrusion: All you have to do is go to an open reading at your local coffee house to see what not going to an MFA school will do for ya. And then there's those poets who write like they went to comp lit classes when they baDickinson it out of Dickinsen or Lang...the differences fascinate, like we're all looking for an angle to be simply understood and contextualize. Your average midlist fiction writer would say, quite simply, "That's what press releases are for," and get back to the writing desk.]

...

… it's also a reminder that too much of today's poetry isn't indulgent enough. Robert Bly, in his introduction of the 1999 edition of The Best American Poetry, complains about the lack of "heat" in today's poetry, which he blames on his old whipping boys: popular culture, computer screens, language poetry. And while indulgence and Bly's definition of "heat" aren't entirely at odds, the impulse of younger poets to not be afraid of pop culture and how it is at least refracted onto their own personal experience, is often drubbed by, well, a lot of older Ivy league pedigreed poets like Bly who, frankly, just don't get it.

...

[2003 Post script: Just saw Born Rich, an HBO documentary on children of the very rich, and many of the subjects' mannerisms -- their breezy unkempt appearance, self-assured defense mechanisms, the very movement of their eyes -- reminded me of -- you guessed it -- young poets of a certain social set. It was eerie, yo.]

So. Another ground rule. Mimickry counts, too ... to read Williams Carlos Williams' queeny Keatsian turns in his earlier years is to re-enter his new world naked is to an understand the change form genteel to Whitman's desire for an "autochthonic song."


Posted at 03:23 pm by lagoon1